omg >_> Luciano Costa has a tumblr and he follows the Kaidan tag.
After the mission, you asked me why I chose you. I mumbled something about being a good soldier or some other crap and cut the talk. You never stopped wondering, didn’t you? Of course I know, I pay attention to my crew. And all those gossips flying around the ship? I know them all as well. Some say it was emotional, that it was a matter of love or jealousy or anger. Some say I simply chose the better soldier - whatever that means. Or I simply went after a bomb and you were lucky enough to be the one planting it. Some say that I chose that way because of some kind of disagreement, life choices, that I simply “liked you better”. I heard them all. Noone knows the truth.
The truth is, I don’t know why I chose you. Sometimes you just have to go on instincts, do something. You just know that whatever you choose is going to be wrong, but not choosing at all would be even worse. So you flip a coin in your head or just run to the closest choice and hope that you can somehow save everyone. Sometimes you can. Sometimes you can’t.
Do I regret my choice? No. I wouldn’t regret choosing differently too, if that’s what you’re wondering about. I valued you both, as soldiers and as friends. I regret having to choose. I spent days thinking if there was something I could do differently to avoid the situation. But even if I’m wiser now, even if I won’t put myself in such a dilemma in the future, I can’t go back in time to save you both. Life just doesn’t work that way.
So yeah. I wish you both were here. And since not all wishes come true, I’m just gonna stick with what I got. I’m glad you’re alive.